Ties, Lies, and Alibis

It's been exactly one year today since I've listened to the song "Shine" by The Morning Of. For good reason, I suppose. It's not a good song. But a year ago today, that song made sense to me.

Life is tricky. Relationships are confusing. Girls are stupid.

So here I am, 365 days later hearing that song again. Remembering that feeling. For one night, I believed a lie so beautiful that I couldn't see the black, malevolent core of it. And four days later, that lie exposed itself for all the world to see and to make an absolute fool out of me.

A year later, I'm still here, waiting for someone to help me up off the ground. Occasionally I'll see someone and hope for a helping hand, but I just end up getting walked on again. But I'm okay with where I am. Perhaps simply because I have to be to get by. But I am okay. And I am over you.